time

we saw Jaime Y at PLAYGROUND 2 days back with her "new" angmo boyfriend and their dog.(i meant glenn's and jamie's). They were getting supper at Carl's Jr, we were having ours too. Only her beau went in to get the takeaway while she waited by her car, a white Z4 that was easily recognisable in a carpark that was almost barren,plus her car was feature in 8 days a few months back. Hmm, why didn't she come in? Was it because of the crowd? or her dog? If I had my camera, I might have secretly taken some photos. Seriously right, on a conservative front, it seems that both parties found new lovers almost instantly. This is what the papers and magazines say, but my take is that they might be sleeping on seperate beds like years before they FINALLY formalise their divorce, probably only sleeping together when there's a need.

And it might look like a rebound, but how can love be measured by time? Couples might still be together for the sake of something(house, kids, convenience, sex) but love was already long gone between them. Some get married after like ONLY 3 months and I ask, why the delay when you found the right one. People delay because they have yet to find the right one and too lazy to come out of their comfort (saving money is an excuse). I know there's a one for me, haven't found mine yet but I can already imagine.

sigh

I need to stop pretending
I need to stop denying
My emotions can't be suppressed for long
why did I even have the slightest intention/hope
when i noe it will be tough.

foreigner

i was on the bus home, sitted at my usual seat(front portion of the bus, nearest to the tv). It was showing America's Funniest Home Videos, i was part watching, part dreaming. In my mind, i was just thinking about the satisfaction i will get from eating the roast duck from Kay Lee for dinner later, thoughts of the oily but well roasted skin were filling up my head. and then Suddenly I got a shock and a reflex action of jumping off my seat was followed.

Without tapping my shoulders or saying hello, she went behind and close to my ear

China Lady: “起道” 在哪？
me: Huh?
China Lady: Avenue 7
me: orh, 七道就在前面转了过后。

Wa lao, firstly she stunned me, secondly she spoke in some foreign language(she's a foreigner speaking mandarin in some weird accent. She should have just asked in english. When in rome, do what the romans do.

spekkies

I finally got my spectacles done today. It was overdue since Nov as it was a bday present from mummy but I can't seem to find the one i liked. Not that I fell in love when I saw this pair but I just wanted new specs. This pair seems nice enough, hopefully when I collect it, it will turn out alright. Haha, I actually gotten a pretty good deal this time round thanks to the "kang tao" from mummy. And i was quite impressed in how in-depth my specs were prescribed, going through numerous testings and a diagnosis on how my eyelashes were growing inwards, irritating my eyeballs and ya, the blown up eyeballs with all the blood vessels were indeed scary. I totally sucked at the Glaucoma test which the machine will blow air into my eyes, and it misses all the time cause of my shutter, it blinks, 182 times. On top of that, the optometrist has a Phd la, how cool can that be..

was checking out backpacks to buy too for the trip too... but guess is still early... I keep telling myself that is still early just to murder the hype.. and not get distracted. .And i am quite shagged out from the coldplay sales..

and after all this, you are still missed

Life

"At the age of 14, he left his family home and went to live in São Paulo, where he worked as a DJ in the night club Rose Bom Bom.

When he was 18, he went on a backpacking trip to Europe. He first worked as a wall painter in Belgium. Following a friend's suggestion, he enrolled himself in a catering college. After his graduation, he has worked in restaurants in Belgium, France and Italy, where he has shaped his gastronomic skills besides learning to speak English, French and Italian.

In 1999, he opened the restaurant D.O.M."

This is what life is about. is what my life should be. it just needs more courage and some letting go.

activities

this week had been more like activities week when I actually should be studying even more rigorously for the final exams. I barely clocked like 4 hours la and is like thursday already so i have only fri, sat and sun to make up for all the lost time. i really should be spending my time wisely and not involved in so much outings even though you can't really help it. mambo was plain for me partly because I was sleepy, partly because of many things, didnt feel like partying with some kind of emotional baggage... dinner at simpang and holland v was nice cause we just talk and talk and talk, laugh bitch laugh bitch... no need for other agenda and was really enjoyable. and people who hear my bitching and all the crazy things that i am so DESPERATE to do, thanks for listening cause perhaps i feel unrestricted talking to you all i can say anything i wan.

connection

sometimes if not all the time
isn't about all the good things you did
is the connection, that random thought
an emotional human being
you won't know how deep is a hole
till you jump into it
and you jump into it
because you feel right

you noe wat. i just want to be happy

lack of...

Sometimes I am in this miserable state is because I simply don't try hard enough
I just don't persist at times and I know that this time round I must change!

stalker

on open house day...
they had human foosball competition
checking out people whilst watching the games
so. there was live commentary
and everything was ok till" ice-cream" passed the mic to "okoelege"
we were above, like in the box seats, he was below, commenting
haha. my dear fren AA got headhunted by him la..
he couldn't stop stealing glances up
the funniest part was when he play My Boo, he started dancing and singing the song
probably inviting AA , dreaming that she's really alicia keys, to sing together.
and for the rest of the afternoon, she was just avoiding him all together.

goallllllllllllllll

Vidic the last man
he pulled Gerrard down... "is he going to get the red card"
the referee's hands at his pocket
something crimson...
off for an early shower
Aurelio positions himself for the free kick
he swings it in, took a mild deflection and is a
GOALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL....

Fear

Honestly while I am watching the game now... Man U v Liverpool
I am very very scared
I fear losing, even though to a better opponent,
I had enough of mockery by the Merseyside
after a while, you stopped hoping
I fear losing the lead, my heart is beating.. beyond fast
just need one more goal...
and the game SHOULD BE over!

far? so what

sometimes happiness is from a distance
as much as I want more
I am glad, for now.

Me

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Me? like this? how accurate sia. not totally i guess.

knowing you

I want to know you
I want to know you more and more!!!!!!

is like.... ba zhang

i think.....is like a dumpling
goodies well wrapped within the walls of lotus leaves
held tightly by a knot of raffia string
some will never untie
one just need to pull
to unveil the finest ingredients inside
might be simple stuff but at least is real, is solid
the sweet aroma as you unwrapped the leaves
dazed yet a closeness to the kiam neng, hai bi, kao lak, cia bah, zu bi and hioh gor
having it any time of the day

pop

I can't really sleep.. now
prolly i will pop a 'sticky' candy
I think I will feel betta that way
a nice flavour to rest my mind

Crowd Lu

something to share before i go off to study
something that I had been listening to
his style.. his music.... cool
his english name a translation of his chinese name(sound like)

cheers to taiwan indie music

My new album

My new album - In Stores Now! Get it at your nearest ma-ma shop.

visa

A trip to the US embassy was dreaded, especially when I was going alone and hearing people whined about how long the waiting time was. I waited like an hour plus. Didn't bother to make any small talk with people queuing beside me either. Even though I knew they were on the same prog, I just bo chap la. Aniwaes, after I had gotten the right queue no. after the wrong one, I just sat down and wait. wanted to read my ELC notes when I started to eavsdrop. There were 3 girls seating in front of me, talking excitedly about the trip, about how they had started bank accounts for their trip, how much money they were bringing... They started to talk about school while I pretended I was trapped in my notes as my ears grew longer and longer. They talked about this guy who,all along, had good results,missing out from examinations as he was sick and started to describe how good, academically, he was.The girl who was directly in front of me, dressed in a blue vintage blouse, seating as if her spine had an artificial support suddenly paid a lot of attention to the description by her friend and gave the arrogant smirk like, "Oh, is it?" Then they left which opened up my view to the female interviewer, whom I was facing directly. God, for the rest of the session I was glued to her, gleefully hoping that she's my interviewer. She looked like Linda Chung, 'cept with more baby fats and maybe shorter. How not to stop looking? And obviously she's an ABC who can speak both english and mandarin, with a taiwanese taste for the latter. for ___ sake, when I got her as my interviewer, I was anxious but equally excited, the close proximity I was from her, separated by a clear glass panel. my trip was worthwhile... for getting my visa approved.