i have a habit of losing things

not within my control

i will fall when is crucial

as I know I am weak

I am not good enough

I am inadequate

I am just not good enough

Why aim for the tree

when you are just a plant

but I want to be a tree

i realise that i need to revive this channel

as a form of outlet

for what has piled up these months

the conscious and subconcious seems to have their paths crossed

"it shouldn't happen""I want it to happen"

aware and unaware

this indeed builds a struggle