Shockingly Grief

Today was supposed to be sad. But I am more shaken then sad. It was like a magic show, boom "wala" and the pigeon flew out.But the pigeon was caught and put in a cage. I was just flipping through the papers, and I saw something which I thought I will never see. But the eyes often see things that the mind doesn't wanna see. A friend just made a passing remark the other day;I invited him to my birthday, but he is not going. To see a friend in suffering is definitely not cool. Now i am giving attention to the yellow ribbon project because i believed in second chances, this may be a stumbling block that cause you to fall, a big boulder maybe but i hope you will stand up again.My prayers will be with you while you are there, friend.

City Venture 2006

City Venture was certainly tiring man.. on Sat. We thought we lost it all, we had already given up hope. But we won 5th prize, a hamper. At least we won something man. Hope to post photos when Cedric return me my cam and when Jasmine post the pictures.. Team JB, we were really lucky to get 5th and was indeed a pleasant surprise. To the committee, thanks for organising the event.

The Big Day

The day is nearing, but I am just a little excited lah. My parents had put in so much into it and my mum is just so enthusiatic about it. "CALEB please get the your deco idea up yeah?" I don't feel the hype, neither do I feel the excitement. Am I weird? Maybe when is very very near, then I might be perked up. Just got a pre-event present, going to watch Notre Dame. I am definitely looking forward to that more than the actual thing. I am so numb.

Green

I watched with envy.
Not envious of him, neither am I envious of her.
Just innocently jealous of what they are sharing.
Admiration of the intimacy and bonding.
Pondering over what connects their heart, I reflect.
While still being green.

Sleepy

What a ****ing day . Decisions! Went home pretty late yesternight after the meeting and dinner. Was kinda drain(probably because of the bus ride) and reached home, ridiculously still had the energy to do my emails. Woke up unwillingly to go to school, decided to soak into the nano world. Was giving Manfred half the attention during econs lecture, as usual talking/writing to Mel, busy copying his notes, but struggle to understand what the shit i am writing. Then i realise that I forgot to bring the text that is due today, thinking of the fine, i felt so dead. Worst case scenario: I have to go home and bring it back which will waste 2 hours of my time. Then I was at crossroads thinking whether should i go for PBF lecture, which I can attend tomorrow. I felt that I am standing right in the middle of the T-Junction, eyes staring at me on the choice I am making(pretty much happens in life everyday). I decided to visit the librarian(To mel: I didnt slip a note!), she was so kind to renew the book for me, decided to go for the wed lecture, went home, watch 2 episodes of Yakitate! Japan and fell asleep because was just too warm to do anything. Thinking Back Today, I should have gone to lecture. Aftermath of a wrong decision, tangible and intangible.

To my dear brother

To Caleb:
Too bad you can't watch Departed. Admit it, you are just too young, too little hair. don't blame it on censorship, just blame it on the weather. Anyway i reckoned you will find a way to watch it, these ratings are just bullshit!

Went to watch the show with the homies the other night, with a strong stench of barbecued smell lingering all over me. Was so glad that Ben confused the timing(the rest wanted to watch WTC), caused I would just go into La-La Land if I watch that film. In need of hardcore, brutal action, Martin sort of satisfied the crave. The story was congruent but the killing was wicked! Shit, it was woo-hoo awesome. I just love the way Scorsese is so blatant and honest with the shooting(with the spilling of blood!) and the impact was so strong that it got me jumping up my seat for the scene at the lift. It was the lunatic methods of Costello that deviates the film away from Infernal but perhaps the Irish mob still lose out in class to the Italians.
I am such a deviant!

Greed

Some things you can only have one
There isn't enough space to fit two in
Mutual choking will suffocate one
Greed spells the greatest disaster

To choose is your authority
Wisdom beckons in this exercise
Whatever that falls from the sky
Be there to cushion and cover the scars.

NBL match @ Indoor Stadium

Some pics taken at the recent NBL match @ Indoor Stadium.
Singapore Slingers vs West Sydney Razorbacks, which the Aussie side got trashed!

中島美嘉

Mika Nakashima 中島美嘉

Long Long Ride

Decided to take a bus today. I love long rides as I glanced the moving images except I was alone this time. A long ride that had only me and the ipod nano. Needed some space to feel real and to fine tune my emotions. I can't help but to think of things, things that are not good for the body but I like the feeling, makes me feel whole. As the bus moves and the music played through my ears, I was glad that I had the time to be alone. Not that I wanted to be alone,(I am not afraid of lonliness, just don't want to do things alone right now), I was made to be alone. I wished I had my camera with me, to capture glimpses of me thinking and being emo. Thats the real me. Thought of the past, and also the present. I had lost it totally, exhibiting a certain amount of hostility, maybe is not yet the time, please rekindle the passion once again. I feel like vomitting all out, but I know the consequences of doing it, I will keep it to myself once I again. I would rather lock it in my heart then to opening it and hurt others.I hold the key to my own heart.