Life Right Now

Been really living life to the extremes!!
Totally maxed out.
Realise today i need a filofax to get myself organised.
Too many dates, too many promises to keep.
But I am soaking into it(dun wanna waste God-given time!)
Maybe there will come a day when I need a breather, but someday.
Learning through humility
Repaying THE OC debt
and the spontaneous EMOness
but I am satisfied(read: maximise utility, Sotong Mouth!)
Priorities right now, not in any order:
School(must start taking the front seat)
SIM41(really taunting)
You
Her
Work
Class 3(very very impt)

Argh....

Rule No. 1 Dun ever be interested in the wrong girl. It really suck these few days not hearing from you. I start to wonder did I do anything wrong, but I didnt even do anything at all. Hmm.. Is plain sick not being in contact with you, then my thoughts just go berserk. Argh, start to think whether did u block me, or just avoiding me. Perhaps I think too much, but I am just worried. I really hope you know how I feel towards you, maybe you do maybe not. I don't care whether how you respond, but right now, you are on the top of my world, the center of my heart.

Gloomy Thursday

School was pointless today.In the morning, I determined that I was too bored to attend a lecture so decided to bump around till the break. During the second half of accounts lecture, spent the whole lesson talking to Eugenia, didn't listen to anything anything the lecturer said except when she asked me to talk to my fren later when my phone rang AGAIN!(Panic! at the Disco-Only Difference...)Looking forward to lunch. Went to meet up my SRC-welfare-SIM41 friends after school, suppose to have a meeting but everyone decided to sit around, take things slow and just chat. After everyone left, the emo thingy started. Everyone's just feeling so emo, emo abt sch not being able to meet real frens, those that can connect spiritually, emo abt being in the wrong dept in SRC, emo about a girl, emo about how we hate human politicking. Really made the environment sad, and dark clouds started to fill, is just gloomy. Gloomy Thursday.

Giving up

I know i have lost half the battle
I have lost half the battle, I am losing the drive
The passion has died off, I am dillusioned.
Giving myself stupid false hopes, I felt dumb
Should i carry on waiting, or just let it go again?
I feel like giving up, not so sure after all.
I really feel like giving up.

Lost

Hopelessly lost
I still have faith
The next step
I cannot contemplate
I just have to wait
even if the sun don't rise
I will still be there
Till you open up your heart.

Argh...

I think that whatever that is happening now is going to be an impact in my life, be it positive and negative. But I am not going to let it slip again, I will not allow it to happen. It is making me confused, emotional and restless, I don't know what to do but I must try. "If you don't try, you will never know".

Deep Inside of you

I think I am really into it. Pretty sure is a sign from him. Everything just seems to fall into pieces. He is using someone's voice and the feeling is powerful, strong enough for me to believe. The someone is special. The one that has taken up a big space in my heart. The one that made me overcome the struggles i had. I felt inadequate when I lied to you the other day. I am sorry. If my struggle is the only barrier between you and me, I have broken the barrier. Not sure whether should I hasten things a little bit, or I should wait for more signs... To above: Pls give me an answer.

Juggling and Flying

Went for training for my job today, had to skip school for one day. It was alright, Herbert came into to office today. Still apprehensive of how am I going to jostle my time, commitments recently seems to get a bit too much. We will see how it goes, if I can't carry too much, I just got to let go of some. Got a message last night from adeline, she's going off soon. Herb says is tomorrow..So fast though wasn't abrupt! U are going to spend your birthday with the Vikings in the cold winter.. I will be here with the Lions in the hot summer, THE SAME TIME.. u got to take care of yourself there ya, miss ya and don't fish too much herrings. Bon Voyage Ade.

Reunion

Was at Bugs' birthday on Sun, the usual crowd went. Of course there were some that couldn't make it. How I wish the whole class was here minus Ng Wee Li. *lolx* Anyway, if I am ever going to have a 21st birthday party, I would definitely make an effort to make the whole class come. "I will make sure you fly back from wherever you are, Jonny!" Too bad Adeline will be in Norway and spending her birthday there, if not all the Nov mates can be around.It was nice to meet up the chaps, always bring back memories of days in school. Lala with her obsessions with pizzas and city hall, Jorim with his business plans. Perhaps I was a little high, but I always put in an effort to entertain the crowd(plus I really wanted the chocolates). Looking at the girls, some into their 2nd yr, others 3rd, we are really running through time. Hope 221 will always stay strong even as we embark on directing our own lives.

So Sick

I am getting more and more emo lately.
Maybe the emo me is coming back.
Things are stirring inside, very volatile
Is just the matter of how long before everything pours out
I really regretted what I did that day
But maybe is beyond my control
Am I lonely for too long?
C'mon dude, fight for what you want.