CNY

This year's CNY is short. I can hardly feel the festive mood. Perhaps is kinda rush, barely into a new year is Chinese new year already. That kinda suck! I like CNY cuz there's new clothes to wear, Ang Pows to take and prawn paste spring rolls to eat. Well, there's still the anxiety for the new clothes but for the intake of Ang Pows, this year is really bad. Maybe I am older already or may be due to the recession and also less visiting done(most Oldies had went to a better place, hopefully).. haha.. :( well, besides the usual CNY stuff, i am pretty much addicted to "qiku"(in Cantonese) chips. These stuff are awesome man, thrashing Kettle chips and tapoica chips hands down, maybe on par to the Thai Lays. Similar to the latter, once you start, you really cannot stop.. really. CNY ain't a big family affair for the Queks, is like reunion dinner and stuff is just like a normal gathering we have during the year. Haha, we ain't that traditional you know.. But the best news about this new year, my xiao gu's family is starting to attend church... Glory to God.

ME

I am not what I ought to be
I am not what I wish to be
I am not what I hope to be
I am not what I once was
"By the grace of God I am what I am."
John Newton

1 day

I have only 1 friggin' day to pack my room... just 1... die liao la... pathetic

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A new dawn seems to rise
blind mice we become
cuz night has fallen
as the dark overcomes
ending wars, peace craving
full-stop to this story

Trips

After mission trip in Thailand, I came back a sick man
After overseas CIP in Batam, I am still sick
Sick.. Physically

Guess both trips left an impression in me. A deep one which I will remember till my next trip. Perhaps the Thailand trip was longer and more compact, I felt that I did more. For the latter, I was there to oversee, thus i receive lesser. But I made new friends and the friendship was my gift for a short span of 3 days. Both trips made me overwhelmed. I was mobbed by the children in Thailand, for once I felt like a rockstar. In Batam, I was touched by a kid's love for God when he sang "Give Thanks". Got a hug rejected from a young girl got me back to my feet. And it was the first time I assembled a cupboard.

When I was in Thailand, I felt that God was being unfair. Why do some humans get to grow in a better environment than others. When I was in Batam I felt the same way. If all humans are equal, why is the starting line different? Do the people really want a simple life? Don't they have expectations? Don't they want to break out of the poverty cycle? If God wants the more fortunate to help the lesser, than why can't He equalise it from the first place?

uhhhhhh....

uhhhhhhhhhhh...... i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

expectation

My life had always been anti-expectations. When I think that something will happen, it doesn't. Always. For the record, the unexpected always happen instead. And the interesting part is that the unexpected isn't really the unexpected, is just something I thought," hmm, might be possible la" but don't really wish that it will happen. Therefore these days, when I wish that something happens, I will try not to think of it.

Down

Having been blogging for a very long while. Will update soon. Right now, just want to say that I had been sick since I came back for my trip. (Hope is not malaria!! ). Had been down with a cold and sore throat, is like when i thought i was getting better, I had like 9hours of sleep in 3 days? I tried to recover by sleeping more, but the more I sleep the more tired I became. Popping pills don't work either. Perhaps the bugs in Thailand are more immune. Just hope that my nose will get tired soon after running this marathon.