Saturday, March 19, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
well, its been a year..
all the changes,
expectations and disappointments
well, its a new year
still changing
still expectations and disappointments
after a year,
still the same old me
too much pride, fear of awkwardness.. especially you
but i know where i stand
don't want to be seen reaching
so i would rather bury it
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
i am insecure about myself
i am disgusted with myself
i pretend to be comfortable in certain occasions which actually, I am not
everyday I tell myself I need to change
morph me into something delightful
but yet i fail myself everyday
and is because of this weakness.
The biggest flaw in my life
that i fail really terribly
GIVE ME THE POWER TO CHANGE IT...oh FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK
Monday, November 29, 2010
i have a habit of losing things
not within my control
i will fall when is crucial
as I know I am weak
I am not good enough
I am inadequate
I am just not good enough
Why aim for the tree
when you are just a plant
but I want to be a tree
i realise that i need to revive this channel
as a form of outlet
for what has piled up these months
the conscious and subconcious seems to have their paths crossed
"it shouldn't happen""I want it to happen"
aware and unaware
this indeed builds a struggle
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I am delibrate in not trying
butterflies, moths, fluttering all over in my stomach
but with sheer mind power
I withold
I want but I can't.
tragedy
butterflies, moths, fluttering all over in my stomach
but with sheer mind power
I withold
I want but I can't.
tragedy
my ego post
i like to be different
to know things that NORMAL pple won't know
interested in things that NORMAL pple won't be
to delibrately speak a different language in front of others
so as to not feel the same
i crush stereotypes
i draw satisfaction from doing this.
at times, is on purpose
sometimes is natural
I try to be an advocate for anti-culture
i like to be different
so that others will feel that they are different from you
maybe a desire to boost my inner ego
when i am emphasised not to
inner voices would tell me want to
especially if you don't deserve any darn respect
or if you have yet to earn any from me
to know things that NORMAL pple won't know
interested in things that NORMAL pple won't be
to delibrately speak a different language in front of others
so as to not feel the same
i crush stereotypes
i draw satisfaction from doing this.
at times, is on purpose
sometimes is natural
I try to be an advocate for anti-culture
i like to be different
so that others will feel that they are different from you
maybe a desire to boost my inner ego
when i am emphasised not to
inner voices would tell me want to
especially if you don't deserve any darn respect
or if you have yet to earn any from me
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