shy

to most and you, I come across as brazen, mean in-your-face and super bitchy
looking it positively, some may see me as no frills, friendly, huggable
i see more of me in the latter descriptions
and looking at both, there's not even a dash of "shyness".
But towards you, I am seriously shy in certain ways
(though I come across as normal, I am deceiving)
for my friends, I can just blatantly do this and that
to ask you the slightest question, i will delibrate
hoping to create a lasting impression, or lead to a conversation
frens had been telling me i think too much
I admit.
I need really big balls