Excitement

Everytime I see you
I can't restrain myself from talking to you
I always look forward to being around
containing my excitement by digging you.
Is to build a wall around my heart
So that unwanted feelings will not spill out.
eventually, flooding you away.
I might not have done so,
but it might be real soon.
When the day finally comes
i am hopeless in reconciliation

I hope you know, really hope you do
I make myself not to like you as much
that renders the feelings of animosity, to you
is just that I am trying not to fall deeper and deeper
till ___, prolly no one will help me,
perhaps only you