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In the car, after dinner, the other day
Dad asked, "why am I not around those people anymore, is there some misunderstanding?" I didnt give a direct answer, revolving around 'working together'. It was one of the reasons, but think the main reason was I am not comfortable around them anymore.(Maybe wasn't at all, but always compromised). I guessed I had a different set of expectations when I faced them, something which diverts from others. So when they seem like the same, i felt edgy, felt like everytime they speak or act, I lay the verdict. Perhaps I am the screwed up 2/many faces bastard that behaves according to the situation, but that is my proudest survival skill. I think I expect the same from them. Not being real? I disagree because values can't change and so, I am uncomfortable because of contrasting values and looking issues at opposite angles. But will still try, like before.
Dad asked, "why am I not around those people anymore, is there some misunderstanding?" I didnt give a direct answer, revolving around 'working together'. It was one of the reasons, but think the main reason was I am not comfortable around them anymore.(Maybe wasn't at all, but always compromised). I guessed I had a different set of expectations when I faced them, something which diverts from others. So when they seem like the same, i felt edgy, felt like everytime they speak or act, I lay the verdict. Perhaps I am the screwed up 2/many faces bastard that behaves according to the situation, but that is my proudest survival skill. I think I expect the same from them. Not being real? I disagree because values can't change and so, I am uncomfortable because of contrasting values and looking issues at opposite angles. But will still try, like before.
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