The Beginning is The END.

While i am typing this, there is probably shrieks of "ow..." cuz my hand is hurting so much. But, no matter what or how or whatever shit, i still must write. here it goes..

Why do i keep talking about her?? Is is starting?? Why am i so concern at all...As a friend or something more?? I m desperately worried..is like a time bomb which cannot be allowed to activate at all. Once activated, things will be horrendous. . Shit! It will never happen, is so erm... not right. maybe u should give it a try. NO! this will not happen.Feelings stir up inside, i m so confused about my own stand and my thinking.